All I've done today is cry. lots and lots of crying. Tears for a friends husband who is in his final moments of what we call life. And tears for a life that I thought I'd be living now. Today I cried and missed darryl in quite a while. Where I looked to him for a hug and he is not there.. And not ironically an email showed up from him today.

Part of me wants new love so I can fill a void in my heart and life and another part knows I'm not ready. I wish I was a normal woman in my mid 20s who found meeting people easier than I do. I have discovered as of late I live a very solitary life with few friends. Maybe today is just a sad day as I reflect on EJ and Veronica. And the love they share is profound. The universe always takes the good souls. Is that b/c it needs the purest of pure so early to keep nature living and moving? Reincarnation to spread such joy again? I dunno...but it's got me down and wishing I had love in my life.