It's been a year since my collegues husband passed away at the age of 43. Her and her husband had a really great love that was shown in the last moments of his life.
I recall feeling my own loss of a man I had married and the life I thought I was meant to have. At the time, I was still dealing with the emotional empitness that I felt might be my forever. I layed in the bath last night thinking about these things and sent this text to my boyfriend. " :) good souls like you don't come around often....How did I get so lucky to have you send me that random message 3 months ago? :) ".......You're not the only one that's been lucky with this situation :)
While I'm not sure my heart has healed from the pain of the life that I thought I was meant to have, J has convinced me even more that my life is on the right path. That good and pure hearts still exist. My heart smiles when I'm around him. Something a year ago I never thought I'd feel again. I hope for him that he will be able to feel as I do b/c I know his life has left his heart damaged. I told him the other night that sometimes we have to just trust and have faith and jump in the deep end, and hope there is water and not a big cement pit. I offered him arm floaties to stay afloat in the water. I hope he accepts them.
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