Falling Into Place at Lowe's

So I've always kind of felt that both my brother and I have been outsiders in life at times. Things never seemed to fall into place for us as simply as it did for other people. I don't know why I've always thought this, but for once things seem to be aligned and happening as they should. He proposed to Jamie today. I guess patience is a virtute and the right and good kind of happiness happens in life like is should and is supposed to. I'm happy and excited for them. I know my brother deserves the best and has always let himself take the back burner for so many other people. It's good to see him being sure about something, especially since the last year has not been easy for either of them.

I've been saying this since last July, but my life just feels wonderful and on the right path. Things feel so right in my life. I love Jim. He's been such an incredible gift in my life. We leave for the beach in about a week and I really want to get him to talk to me about stuff (that I know he hates talking about) while we are there. In my own lil brain...I see and notice all kinds of weird things around me, and tonight, was no exception. It's hard for me to see a future that doesn't have him a part of it. I think he thinks so as well but won't admit to anything. We ran to Lowe's for him to pick up the saw he and B were wanting to get their Dad for father's day. We ended up just kind of wandering around the store for awhile...through the floor displays of kitchens, bathrooms, lights and whatever else we saw. J talking about what he would like to have in a house one day. I'm a woman. I couldn't help but in those 20 minutes of wandering around the store think about what our future looked like. Would this 'house' be our house, as we had joked about before. When Mike called, in the back of my mind I had a flash to the store. While I would not expect us to be engaged or getting married, I see it happening in our future and forming our life together. I get good vibes from his mom and granny towards him about me. I dunno, call it woman's intuition.

It's just incredible to feel like life is falling into the life I had always imagined it could and would be. It feels amazing to know the future is bright and I've got a strong person right there along side me.